Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Knock my heart.

Sometimes,I still saw the fragments of the boy I ever loved. But its shattered and broken into pieces. There is so much our sense couldn't determine,there is so much we can't do about anything. Apart of keeping myself busy,you still managed to appear in my thoughts.

I hope you are doing fine. May God Bless you. ;)

; I hope you'll always believe,my heart still belongs to you.

Friday, January 27, 2012

When I'm Gone

So much to achieve. Final exam approaching,loads of test and quizzes. Its time for a head-cracking. Throw me good luck so I can chase the laziness inside of me.

Small Question: What if the one that got away,come back.?

Tuesday, January 24, 2012


I'm not getting happier each day. Everything else is real dull. These days have been real slow. I got caught up by myself a lot. And yeah,most things happened when we least expecting it. When I thought everything is said and done,he come and knocking on my door. Whats the point of you asking how am I doing when everything is over? Part of that,what's the point of missing someone in mind and in heart, when they can't even decode the truth behind that. You are just a passing time,and I wont make a same mistake twice.

; Inside I just keep telling myself I want to die, but in reality, I just wanted to be saved.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

My fragile heart is getting tired.

Reasons, reasons. 
What difference does it make if I tell you why. You still can't decode this small set of being, even if it's plain simple. 

I hope you understand,but you never seems to. Or maybe you choose to blind your eyes,numb your feeling,just like what I've been doing as well. Perhaps. 

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Everything just blows me away.

Ever the day where nothingness consumed you? The day where you feel like you wanna isolating your self from the world,from all the reality? I don't know how to put into words,but its sort of feeling where you sense of helpless feeling of something you used to be have been ripped away. 

My dad is sick. He got caught by his asthma. I hope he will recover as usual. Its breaking my heart seeing him coughing so hard,cant breath properly. :( I wish I don't have to leave home. Pa,get well soon. I always pray for you.

--I really need someone to talk to right now. I really need someone who able to lean his/her shoulder to me to cry on. Because now I admit,I am weak. I am mentally and physically drained.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012


Day passing as usual. Dull and getting duller. So many things to achieve,so little times. 
I bet I had lost interest in everything,really.  

Small Reminder For Myself:
I should pay less attention to you now. Though its hard and hurt,but the fact you are not even mine,and I'm not yours are way much hurting me.
Small Reminder For You: 
-Maybe you forgot,but I have heart too. 

Sunday, January 8, 2012

So close,yet so far.

Not everything that we want,we can get,and not everyone that we love,will love us in return. Its ironic,how we adore the one that ignore us,but adore the one that ignore us. 

Imagine a soap,hari-hari kita sental,dia slowly nipis,and lama-lama habis. 
Sama dengan hati.
So don't take things for granted,
don't take a person for granted.

One day you will realized you had lost the moon because you are too busy counting the stars. I am too fatigued to chase you now. Because you never seemed to realize that I had stand in front of you for too long.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Childish Fear.

Kadang kadang aku rasa aku melampau jugak.
Kadang kadang aku rasa aku cengeng. Serious shit aku benci jadi budak cengeng.
Sekarang mentally aku senang betol drained. Minor things pon boleh buat aku nangis.

Jiwa aku kacau sebenarnya. Aku tengah mencari,tapi aku taktahu apa yang aku cari.
Aku taknak attach diri aku dekat sangat dengan siapasiapa. Sebab orang  yang paling dekat
dengan aku biasanya akan buat aku paling banyak menangis. Without them realizing it.

Aku nak bersendirian.
Aku takkan sakitkan hati org,org pun takkan sakitkan hati aku.

Friday, January 6, 2012

First Friday For 2012.

Today I'm an early bird,note that. I woke up at 8 am(me consider that as early for I'm not a morning person) and went have some breakfast with my friends. Just an average day,nothing amazing seems to happen and amaze me. Holidays end tomorrow. And then I need to gear up my ass slogging with all the books again. Oh time why you no fly much slower. :(

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Flashbacks from things I don't wanna remember.

; I think I need somebody to sing me a lullaby to cuddle me to sleep. I wish its that simple but it's not. I got lot of things spinning round in my mind and its keep haunting me. I cant chase them away for they have being a part from ghost of me.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Ghost that kept silent.

Reflecting 2011,all I can say its a year that went by so fast,maybe a little bit too fast. It's the year where I felt so much pressure to the point where I gave up so many times but still learning how to get back up. Its the year where I said I am going to accomplish great things yet I felt I just wasted a time. It's the year I cried over too many pointless things,too many times. Its the year I looked back on all of the lifetime memories in which I found myself missing people in them. But its also the year that I move on,slowly and found its okay.

2012 kick start wasn't really a blast for me. 
I already wrote a dirt in my second page of blank book for this new year. 
But I believe,whatever happened today,I still have tomorrow :)