Plunging A Dagger To The Heart Of A Deceiver.

I never thought this would be the end of my hopes,my waiting over something and someone. I never thought tonight I would discovered the truth that you are hiding and concealed for so long from me. I thought you still remains the same like the person I used to know very well back past five years. Maybe I forgot,just like seasons,people change. But why you are tying me up with your fake promises? Why is it so common and easy for you to make promises about something. Maybe now GOD really answer my prayers and finally show me the real path that I should take because for all this time all I ever figured is dead end. 

You were my first romantic disappointment and since that I never again given myself entirely.

I am too scared of loss,pain and separation. These things were inevitable on the path to love,and the only way of avoiding them is not taking a path at all. In order not to suffer,I had to renounce love. I chose not to see bad things in my life because I suffered enough of all the bitterness.

I knew you are not reading this and you did not know that almost every day and every single things that I wrote in here is the expression of my heart. I blog because I want to express the disconsolate that I'm facing because of you. Million thanks for making me attached of the fraud that you make,for overloading my mind with a sorrow. I just want to be free of you,because the way you are obviously free of me. If one day the day come where you will be reading all these,I will make sure it wouldn't make any sense anymore. I will make sure it is fully over. 

I will make sure the time you see my face,you would feel a big hollow in your heart and when your mouth is turning to a curve and asking me " Is it still not too late to pursue our erstwhile love story?" And that time,I would stifle your intention with "Why you wanna wasting your time with the girl that you already wasted for?" And and that time,you will know how it feels like to be me. ME.