The reason might still be vague to you.

As the clock is ticking and time passes by, I realized my life is passing too slow. Slow enough and getting slower everyday. The emptiness that consumed me really make me into who am I today. It totally shaped me growing into someone I never want to be. Every little things in my life seems go with the flow as I am really exhausted to make an effort. Loads of day I found myself were absolutely not functional. I have being deceiving myself from people around me because i found that being alone and silence was the only option left. You wouldn't noticed any single weird dot on my external appearance,well because I am good at game of pure lies. Those night and days that i waited for an ending seems so far away. I got the patience with me,long enough. But still that long enough doesn't really enough for you to realize. The numbness and constant blankness I've experienced that I thought would end,did not.   




                                   ; I got the patience with me,long enough. 
                              But now is letting go.Forever might be enough.